In silence

I sit here every day from 8.30 to 5.00 n more, I can't take this anymore. I'm tired and frustrated with the life I choose..:( But the increment is I must say satisfying. However the satisfaction of the daily scary average is getting to me. I can't be put in that position every day. I'm too afraid and scared to be very careful at every step I take and every procedures and process that I incurred in my daily everyday life work. I'm not up to this kind of pressure and stress. I have no heart nor mentality to face this kind of situations every single day of my life. Yes I am complaining to the very core of this job. Yes, I do call it a job instead of a career. Yes, I chose this very path myself. Yes, I am the cause of this very situation that I am in. Yes the only thing I do is complain and never proceed to do anything about me. Yes I am at fault at all that I do in my life. I don't ever deny this 'yesses', bt I am just human. And all I can do is in silence and in this blog, because there's no one out there for me.